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It was my third class in Cooperman's College Prep's Identity and inequality course at TCNJ. We had been learning about the concept of unhomeliness in a postcolonial sense, where people have the feeling of being caught between two clashing cultures. This comes hand in hand with double consciousness or the feeling of your identity being divided into several parts. This concept has been impactful to me as an immigrant since I have felt this way and could not place the feeling. I left my country at around eleven to twelve years old to find a better future and opportunities for myself. I've been living in the United States for four years. During that period, I felt like I was nowhere, not here nor there. I was trying to adapt to this culture, language, and environment that was foreign to me.
In the third year of my schooling, my family and I decided to visit my country, Ecuador. At that moment, I didn't feel divided into two cultures. I was trying not to feel out of place. When we arrived there, everything was the same as the day I left, but something didn't feel right at the same time. I had a gut feeling that I wasn't supposed to be there. When I came back to the US, I also felt the same way, like I never left, but I wasn't supposed to be there. The capacity of the mind and feelings is amazing. Knowing this word helps you realize when you felt like you didn't belong, and it connects you to those experiences of confusion where you didn't know what you were feeling to finally? Word and a definition. An example is when immigrants are in a different country where they don't feel identified and feel like they have to be another person with a different culture to be part of that country. This topic interests me, and I would like to deepen my acknowledgment of how these two concepts act in the lives of different individuals.
