I rate it a 9, you have some real talent! Keep working hard and you will for sure be going places!
If you are struggling in life please go seek medical help IRL, online will not do much help for you especially relying on others. I believe you can get through the tough times and get the help you need, I hope if you can talk to somebody who can help you with the things you are struggling with can also help you on your confidence. I bet you look perfectly fine, please try to ignore the thoughts in your mind telling you that you look bad. I do not know what you look like, sure enough, but I do not think you look bad. Nobody looks bad, we are born the way we are and we should try and think of the positive things about ourselves. <3 Have a good morning/day/afternoon/night and I hope things get better, best of luck in life to you!
The lighting is encased within a very unusual encasing. By the looks of it, it is custom made and crafted to have it's unusual shape. The unusual shape may be made by stained glass, or colored glass. Stained glass is usually created using fiber and silica. Because of the thickness, most of it absorbs the light (as we can see that not the whole shape is lightened up, as well as how the light does not show up inside the house), as well as reflect them (as parts of the color is not dark enough to absorb). While this shape is unusual, and is not very useful, it still does the job it is suppose to do, dim the light.
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