The narrator seems to be gleaming after the loss of his lover; she wonders what happens next after his death that is why she sparkles hoping for a better life that will bring happinessagain to her face she laments him in a way that expresses love even though he is gone. She is genuinely after, but she tries to be active by letting it go even though it does not seem more comfortable for her. The love is shown when she describes him using all the useful expressions and the life that they shared.
