And yes, I can fix Grammar, but am in your shoes with the horrible things that have happened in my life. I was (and still am at this point) suicidal. I got angry at the world too....because I didn't know how to express my emotions nor' feelings towards the situation....so I got mad....at everything and everyone.... sooner or later I ended up pushing them away or closing them out not wanting to hurt them any further... Anyways that's not my back story but... I get where your coming from and im glad you found your answer, but remember, you always have friends to lean on a bit also, not all your weight, but just a little, or enough to get you back up on you feet again and you can walk..
