Hey, are you okay? If you're actually having those kinds of thoughts, please seek help. Call the hotline number. I may not know your situation but life isn't as bad as ya think. It'll be worth it in the long run, so please don't do anything rash. You being gone would cause more grief and pain to the people who care about you. So please, keep fighting.
tensions rises, and some sort of crisis occurs and reaches its climax (development). Then the crisis is resolved (recapitulation). Maybe there's a twist at the end (coda). The mains “scenes” within sonata-allegro form are 1) exposition, 2) development, and 3) recapitulation.