The author uses this literary device called Figurative Language to express the feelings experienced; in this passage, the narrator talks about how the its mind and head were with the awful feeling of sadness. The author also talks about the sensation of space in which her mind was enclosed.
All this sentences and comparisons are part of a Figurative language that is used to make the speech more effective, persuasive, and impactful for the reader to feel more deeply the words of the narrator and could live through them. This figure goes beyond the literal meaning of the words and gives the reader more insights.
It means that a certain amount of people were very carefully watching her every move, either they were judgmental or curious about her
I was found in the ground only to be brought up by rain left alone in a, field I bury back in yet I still feel the same
try living in my shoes they won’t fit
because I live in the earth