An infinitesimal eternity I must endure
As I stride painfully among the crowd
They're looking at me, of this I'm sure
And the noise gets unbearably loud
Each silenced whisper from inside the din
Every glance I receive from amid the throng
Sends a roiling heat wave across my skin
And methinks my own existence is wrong
"Do not be shaped by judgement of others"
Says a gentle voice inside my head.
I bite back tears from the words of my mother
With my sanity hanging by a thread.
I know what they think doesn't shape me
But some things are easier said than done.
It's safe to say that my passionate plea
Is sincerity second to none:
I long to be just another human being
So I can quietly live my own life
But I darken with fear that what they are seeing
Is just an existence boned with a knife.