Answer: not necessarily no i feel like if i disappeared tomorrow or unalived tmr sure yeah people will cry at my funeral but eventually i will be forgotten i feel as so im not good enough for the people i care about and even though i try to protect them they still end up getting hurt and i try so hard to help people and i just end up getting used and backstabbed i just wish like people would care about me more i put so much effort into my friendships and my relationship and i dont get a lot back ever friendship/relationship should be 50?50 mines usually end up being 95/5 which hurts so much because i care about so many people and i just usually dont get much in return
