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A war is an environment of death, decay, problems, sadness and destruction. For Nat to compare her own situation to a war, she must be involved in these terrible factors. Nat's situation, therefore, must be a situation of misery and destruction, where she cannot find rest and happiness, but has the feeling that everything is falling apart around her and where she feels no security at all.
I think it's like holding a grudge
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