I believe it is called a zygote...
I'm sorry that's probably not much help to you, but I tired.
¡¿Por qué quieres morir ?! eso no es bueno. por favor no te sientas así!
One is to go find help and talk to a professional like a counselor. You could talk to your doctor and they can refer you to a physiologist. You could also go find a hobby and do something that you love. Of course it's best to talk to your doctor and talk with a parent, teacher, some adult you trust
