Question

25 points!!! Please help :/

Answer 1

Well, this is gonna get personal. I suffer with depression and social anxiety my brain is messed up because of me basically. I self harm and cut myself. I for some reason I decided it was a good idea to collect my blood. I did, and I drank it for some reason and not knowing that ingesting blood can intoxicate you I went crazy. I have a very bad temper. I started screaming and throwing blood everywhere in my bathroom, soiling my clothes and everything and then after I almost had a panic attack I just broke down crying and it made me feel so broken in every way. People who don’t have depression can not even start to figure out how it feels. Obviously if you didn’t pick it up already I’m some teenage punk anime artsy weeb who everyone is afraid of because they think I’m a freak. And they aren’t wrong. I mean, here I am spilling my guts to some random person. But anyways, I listen to music while I’m going completely phsyco and just start crying. and I don’t know how I could fix that, I don’t have any idea it was just a typical Monday. I just ended up listening to my favorite music and killing myself mentally until I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning frantically trying to clean all the blood off of everything before my parents saw. I’ve been to therapy for anger issues. My parents have no idea who I am or what I want, so they just keep on forcing more college onto me at 13 so I can be so called succesful. But to resolve pain I feel I just try to listen to music and fall asleep. I’m so sorry, i don’t think I can answer your question, you should report me to get your points back because I don’t deserve them. I’m not a freak, I’m not going to hurt anyone, and hurting myself isn’t my choice I’m just a shadow of myself. So please don’t be scared of me I am a very loyal person and I try to be as good of a person as I can but it’s hard when people keep on hurting you. Thank you for listening to my freak show of a life I hope you never have to deal with any of this and I thank you for trying to motivate people to see and resolve thier problems. you’re a good mate :)