Answer:
I made it up
my ideas were what made me,
what i viewed to navigate the world,
the perfect degree, job, family, income,
all meant a part of my future endeavors,
this came about I heard for the first time the phrase
you are, in full control of your life,
eager, I'd start early and study all as I could,
my ego is that what kept me alive so far,
but after some time, life happened,
and my heart fell into a tragedy,
nothing seemed to matter,
life was but a sequence of pleasure and suffering, and I was but a microscopic boat with other billions of boats about'
sailing across a thunderous storm where at last the final destination arrived,
The Grim Reaper
my ideas were what I thought were
but from that day on,
I reliazed that, I had them up,
I had made it all up,