Answer: After the death of her mother, and following the Jenkins ruling getting overturned, Williams realized that she could not maintain the blind obedience she had for a government that was to blame for the deaths of her family members.
Explanation:
In The Clan of One-Breasted Women, by Terry Tempest Williams (1991) the author explains that her mother, grandmothers, and six aunts had died of breast cancer.
We see it as a very green and calm place. If the weather gets hotter and dryer then we might be surprised when there is no grass, then get use to it. When we see real grass later we will be surprised.