Many young women in industrialized cant afford or get access to contraceptives and a lot of them have children to assist them with work around the farm. Children are required to look after parents when they get older due to the government not being able to financially assist that much, so parents are inclined to have more children.
BE nice to your self
you do you
Remember that everyone makes mistakes
Focus on what you can change
Studying makes you tired because physically, you dont really want to do it but you know you have to or you’ll face consequences for not doing it which can be exhausting.