Another APEX Answer is:
Sometimes my heart was sinking so fast with anger, desolation, and weariness, I was afraid it would sink to the very bottom of the Pacific...(209)
Explanation:
Here Pi is fighting himself internally. He has depressing thoughts such as just giving up. He has a choice whether or not to act on those feelings which is the battle itself.
He couldn't understand what he is supposed to see besides ink,He could not see the pictures either.
He repeats the number 115 over and over in his mind, realizing he has said it before. Above him is a narrow crack in the rock. That's where the light is coming from.
I oppose Kaepernick's actions because he could do so many other beneficial things besides just sit down. He could donate to a multitude of organizations, etc. However, I support his cause.