The narrator feels as if they are sick,and if she/he got on the bus they will feel humiliated. Insted a couple of friends in her/his class was with the narrator, Ms.Gruwell was the only one who could talk to her/him about anything,and talking to her/his friends made the narrator feel completely better.
<span>Suspense is at work; it compels the audience to find out what will happen next.
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