I'm not sure if this is a general question or not, but I thought I'd share some advice. I don't know what you're going through right now but it seems tough. Try to focus on the positives in life and not on the negative things. Don't let mere temptations get the best of you. Believing in yourself can completely change your lifestyle, and your thoughts can alter reality.
If you continue to have issues with your mental health then I encourage you to seek the help of a professional. Professionals can do much more than people on the internet can. If you're too scared to tell your mother that you're feeling upset, you could always tell a trusted adult or your school's counselor. If you believe you're going to end up doing something to yourself, seek help immediately. You are worth it, you are valid, and you are amazing. You are not alone.
Answer:God can give you feelings God could instantly give you feelings but in the long run it wouldn’t help. Your faith must be in the bedrock of the Word of God, not the shifting sands of feelings. Emotions fluctuate wildly.
Also, pray for others as well. It is truly amazing to see what praying does and that having an effect on other people. It makes you feel even closer to God because you can see that his presence is so strong through everyone and he is thinking about others 24/7. Come together with others and pray.
frequent blinking, or heavy eyelids. Daydreaming; wandering/disconnected thoughts. Trouble remembering the last few miles driven; missing exits or traffic signs
