You just had to look at me and now look where you are. If we look back to where we were just 90 minutes ago before we left the house together. Your mom told you not to use me and drive. But you did not listen and now look at where we are. We are at the bottom of this ditch because you just had to look at me and see what your friends were talking about. The world does not revolve around me so i don't know why i always have to be with you. And another thing that isn't good is that on top of being with me you had alcohol as well. It doesn't make sense that being with me did this to you but also having alcohol it was a recipe for disaster. I hope you have learned your lesson and will never do any of this again. Sorry i got to go your parents aren't let us see each other for a long time.
“It started with alcohol, making cocktails of all sorts of drugs, even overdosing to make the rushes last longer. I took copious amounts of these chemicals every day for as long as two years until I had a bad trip one night and went into toxic psychosis. I prayed and cried for this feeling to go away, I had voices in my head, had the shakes and couldn't leave home for six months. I became very withdrawn and thought everyone was watching me. I couldn’t walk in public places. Man! I couldn’t even drive.
I ended up homeless and on the streets, living and sleeping in a cardboard box, begging and struggling to find ways to get my next meal.
I asked myself if this is rock bottom, and I believe that it was. While observing these homeless people I decided that I had had enough. Yes I wanted drugs, but I realized that I could want life more.
