I believe the drug which is being described above is known as GHB, which stands for <span>gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid. It creates a feeling of elation, and depresses the central nervous system in the body.</span>
1 because she’s talking about herself
It can be some kind of trauma she experienced that she associates with clowns. The phobia of clowns is known as “Coulrophobia”. It is a phobic disorder that in most cases can cause anxiety.