I’m not understanding the question but if your asking what that quote means there here ya go: she is saying is that her death will ultimately cause grief and chaos after she is gone. She feels guilty that her parents life and those that love her, are almost making a sacrifice because they love her. Her parents and Gus loving her will in the end be the death of her and them. Ironic, huh?
This is a lil wow but sorry I can’t help try the internet
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