No, you’re not a bad person. Many of the symptoms you listed are symptoms of BPD(Borderline Personality Disorder)
It can only be diagnosed by a psychiatrist and you would possibly benefit from medication and therapy…if it is BPD, there are definitely ways to treat it and the best part is that after just a little treatment, most people will see an improvement in their symptoms and their self image overall. The sooner you get to a psychiatrist and get tested, the sooner you will know what you’re facing and develop a treatment plan with your doctor….and give yourself a little kindness and love. Don’t automatically believe what you’re experiencing are character flaws as opposed to reasons to seek medical attention.
Pedialyte.
Start with a few teaspoons every 5 minutes. When they can drink without throwing up, try giving larger amounts.
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its just another day wondering why am i here instead of therapy rn
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LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide) is a synthetic chemical, made from a substance found in ergot, which is a fungus that infects rye (grain).
LSD is used in media by usually swallowing or dissolving under the tongue, but it can also be sniffed, injected or smoked.
I would highly recommend not do this cause it's a destruction of a life.