I'm sorry love there is no answer to that but i will say know how it feels. I'm not gonna lie or give you false hope because there definetly will be bad days but, there will be good days so try to enjoy those as much as you can. Don't let them bring you down because I let them bring me down and it took long to get out of my low point. Try to remember good times and find people who will care for you.
By any chance do you have a brother or a favorite kid, usually parents tend to focus on they’re “favorite kid” not giving attention to the other ones and that may put they’re focus on the other kid not caring what one does