Im sorry you shouldn’t feel like you have to please everyone all the time, I think you should talk to someone, sometimes it’s feels worse to wait and wait for someone to help you, you have to help yourself. I know that can be hard and you don’t want to face the people in your life and tell them you’re not okay, but I promise you’ll feel much better. You don’t have to put up a front.
The American Diabetes Association recommends aiming for a blood sugar level between 70 to 130 mg/dl before meals and less than 180 mg/dl one to two hours after a meal.